Neko

He has changed a lot ever since he started working. I mean before he was nice but most of the time he would take out his fustration out on me. Now that he is working he is all lovey-dovey, and to top it off he goes and asks me if I want to move in with him when I get a job. Now is acting stupid again. I mean what is it to him I missed a couple of classes? He isn't going to school for me he isn't the one affected if my grades start to slip. By the way they aren't besides it's midterm week and I can easily catch up with the classes that I did miss. Why can't he just back up off me? He calls me Monday and calls me a liar that I haven't change. Shit I am not changing to please him I am trying to get better for my sake. He then goes on to tell me that he broke up with me so I could get my life together. I am together , so what if all that drama happened to me like two years ago ,he knows I am trying to deal with it. I know realize that if my family is going to condem me and act like its my fault that my dad is where he is then they can just all go to hell. I don't think Wayne realizes that is how feal about them now even if I did tell him a few times already. He says that I have to improve with my school work well I am not going to get straight A"s over night, it takes time. He knows very well that for two quarters I was depressed I mean extremely depressed that I had to go on meds, and even then those didn't help and that is what caused me to go over the edge and had to be hospitalized. Why doesn't he see that buy calling me a liar that he is hurting me. I have changed since we broke up. I do my work , I hang out with my friend with no worries that he is going to be like "where were you?" I can do what I want, he can't get upset because he let me go and I am not with him. Granted I did spend a week with him and it was really blissful. I mean last week we didn't even argue or anything. Now this week is so differnent he is upset with me because I supposably didn't do what I said I planed for myself one day. Meaning I planned to do my Fafsa, go apply to this store and catch up on some work. I did about half of that. Last night I call him and he gets upset because I am hanging out with Diana! what BS is that? I call him when I get home and he goes " I was happy last night talking to you , I thought you were going to do all those things you said you were going to do. But you didn't instead you went to hang out with your friends.YOU Liar! then he hangs up on me! At that point I didn't even say anything I just dumbfounded. I tried to explain to him that I hung out with Diana after my class was over but he didn't believe me. I did do what I planed to do except go apply at the store. I couldn' t fill out the fafsa with out my mom's income tax info and when he asked ( I called him back again) now what are you going to do? ( He sounded so smug that I didn't do my fafsa eariler and didn't do my taxes). I sometimes wonder why he even broke up with me in the first place if he still going to act like we are still going out. Why can't he just figure what he wants and not confuse me. I still love him but sometimes My heart is in so much pain just by the way he acts toward me. I just want to be happy and I want him to be happy for me. He knows that I like to do things at my own pace.